bed of flowers

my bed of flowers is woven from wilted tulips and broken roses
tightened nooses and lovely poses right underneath our noses
scribbling notes on the pedals of ghost orchids and sweet violets
and using them to hide from deep blue irises and heart string viruses
i broke the daisies next and sliced a narcissus
im a narcissist who’s been choking on my Baby’s breath
And i might breathe
If i survive the chrysanthemums inside my poison IVs 

2:49 freestyle

I’m not addicted anymore so now I’m free to think

walking backwards from the universe I see it shrink

trying to tell every empty soul to slow it down and get control it’s so profound stepping over open ground on tipsy toes took a shot the whiskey froze congealing blood across my waxy bones inspiring poems composed of carbon clones invented while I was all alone. Some may call it scary but this is what I call my home. We all had big plans on New Year’s Eve but that won’t make theses blue tears leave so there’s no reason to wipe your eyes on your cardigan sleeve. I’m gonna die twice I’m gonna die twice once when my heart stop beating and once when you forget about what I write

-momento mori

old school freerunning

another video i found. it speaks for its self
-momento mori

Alone in the wilderness

So at the age of 51 this guy completely abandoned society,civilization and all human contact to test him self and live in the Alaskan wilderness. watch this and think how long could you survive out there he lasted 30 years
-momento mori

Houdini

Alright, real talk, this is harry houdini and im like distantly related to him which is amazing because i mean hes a legend and had a massive impact on society. Also he was a total badass this is comparable to being related to chuck norris. there was nothing superhuman about him every escape was through his will, denial of pain, and training beforehand. he jumped off a bridge shackled and landed face first knocking out teeth but he was still shackled and had to escape. our world has seem to lost the stiff upper lip of past generations that is championed by people like houdini and even in the poem invictus. people like houdini got us to the moon and i feel like as soon as we achieve something great like that we just accept it. yha were the shit now were going to sit on our hands instead of pushing and forging on. houdini was performing stunts well into his 50's i mean honestly we as a country, we as a generation can do better. instead of spending 40 hours on facebook and watching south park why dont people try to better them selves
-momento mori

Procrastination

My god i have school in three hours, i have massive amounts of work and i really don't see myself doing it anytime soon. All of this can be attributed to my time perception. basically theres 6 main personalities in accordance to time perception 2 focused on the past 2 focused on the present and 2 focused on the future. there are those f us who are too nostalgic and only think about the good old times they are the one who usually keep family records and traditions alive. The reverse of this are people who are consumed by regret of the things they could have done or changed this is usually the ex girlfriend who calls you at 4 am saying they want to talk. there are also two ways to be present oriented either you are hedonistic where you only live for pleasure and you avoid pain or there are those who refuse to plan because they say their life is fated and they don't have control of it typically religious or run down by poverty. Most of us are future oriented we have learned to resist temptation and to work rather then play. Then there are those who are focused on the absolute extreme of planning and that is those of us who believe that life starts only with the death of the mortal body. this concept of how you perceive time effects nearly every aspect of well..everything. a country that is more associated with the Protestant religion has a higher national out put then a catholic one. this even affects politics there is a movement in Italy called la legia all they want is to cut Italy in half right under Tuscany.The people in the north say that they do all the work and the south is just dead weight who like their 15 hour dinners and such while people in the south say that the north isnt even Italian they are German they eat yogurt instead of pasta. the people in the north are shown to be more future oriented while the south tends to be more hedonistic or past oriented. If you are familiar with the Sicilian dialect you will know that there is not to to be verb you can say what you did what your doing but not what you will do. we all start life as present hedonists we want the bottle/Brest but through school and what we learn we are turned into a more future oriented people. if you have ever wondered why someone who is smart has a low GPA this is probably why their brain is wired in such a way that school doesn't provide that instant gratification  they are looking for. you will also notice that the just say no drug message is specifically designed for a future oriented mind which understands that already. This concept can be used to explain why parents don't understand their kids especially now we are undergoing a revaluation in time everything must be done faster more efficiently this is wonderful for the future oriented minds but they are going to end up leaving the rest behind. I hope you enjoyed my 3 oclock rant
-momento mori

Spacebound

Today i woke up at 1 i watched the winter classic and it struck me how dumb it is. every aspect of what i watched was absurd.
1. there is a hockey rink in the middle of a football stadium yet all the fans are in the stands and there is this really awkward and apparent  space between the fans and the ice but there is still the Plexiglas wall.
2.the ice was falling apart because the ice wasn't on a flat surface so it had to be Zambonied every other minute
3.we watch these massive angry Russian men who will body cheak and fight each other but they decided not to wear shoes they strapped razors on their feet and decided to run on ice.
4.organ music
5.the announcers either talked about their childhood or the wind. i don't see how the wind could play such a big role in the game if there is that glass wall 

honestly who thought that this would be a good idea at all but even with all this hockey is still amazing to watch. after the game i found myself extremely bored i began wondering my house looking for something anything to do. I stepped into my garage and there it was the salvation of my afternoon. It stood like a monolith casting a intimidating shadow across the floor. i ran to it and carried it to my back yard and began setting up my trampoline. it is easily the most fun Ive had in awhile i haven't found any way to keep the bounce out of my step i feel like a 6 year old kangaroo all i can think about is tramping at 4 in the morning. I find it strange that i can enjoy the complex flavors of a Cohiba and then the next day be so pumped to be bouncing slightly higher then normal. overall its been a good day not memorable by any means but it could have been a significantly worse way to start the year.

-momento mori

New years

well its about 3 hours into the new year and it super peaceful nobody is awake in my house and the only sound is the soft crackle of a cohiba between my fingers. like anyone who's ever smoked a proper cigar you find your self deep in thought. electric pulses flowing from neuron to neuron and shuffling through the past memories of years gone past. The cigar was just like my year at the very beginning it was exciting something to look forward to but as it goes on it slowly burns down and the smoke is swallowed by the night. at the end of every year there is this deep sense that i haven't accomplished anything and that it was a year swallowed by the night and impossible to regain it. don't get me wrong there where things that where good but its completely over shadowed by the bad. tomorrow is a new day of a new year that has to be better then the last
-momento mori